When compared to the month of March, April has been much slower. There are some benefits to that, but at the same time Katie and I might be having trouble adjusting to the new pace. We are waiting on so many things and instant gratification is not something Haiti is known for.
In this season of our lives we find ourselves often quoting Donald Millers book, "A Million Miles In A Thousand Years" I cannot tell you what an impact that book has had on us and if you have not read it then I encourage you too find a copy and do so immediately.
The section from his book that has been on my mind lately is the section where he talks about the slow grind of the story you are in. It is the unglamorous, tedious work between the excitement of starting something new and the thrill of accomplishing something. To paraphrase the book is the point at which you can no longer see the shore behind you and you cannot see the shore ahead of you and no matter how hard you paddle you seem not to go any where. I think that is where we are.
In our story of life there are many subplots, many battles to be fought, many adventures to be had. And sometimes you forget you are in any of those. You forget you are in a rich environment for missions, that rebuilding (anything not just a country) take years, maybe decades, not months and that the race you run is more like a marathon that a sprint.
I have never run a marathon. In fact I rarely sprint. So I often find myself in the place I am now doubting if I am doing enough, frustrated that I cannot find more to do, tired because I feel like I have done so much. It is a long slow grind to the finish line, and this week, for me has been a reminder that what we do in Haiti is not judged by one month, but by the entirety of its work.
In has also reminded me that true fulfillment is not found in my successes. How may students I teach, how many A's I give, how many interviews I give, how many homes I build, how many lives I impact. Those things by themselves leave me chasing after the next accomplishment, always hungry. However, if those things come out of over-flow of my heart and my affections for Christ then I can be content in whatever I do or don't do.
This of course all sounds great when typed and read, actually doing it is a little harder.